Dear X,
I wish I were writing you for other reasons, but I just can’t continue our relationship feeling the way I feel right now. I’m writing this letter instead of talking face-to-face because I have much to tell you and this seems like the best way to express it.
Should I start by telling you how I love you? Or that the time I’ve spent with you has been the happiest in my life? Or that in the all the time I’ve known you, I was confident that we were meant to be together? I could write all those things and all would be true, but as I reread them, the only thing I can think is that I wish I were with you now, holding your hand and waiting for your elusive smile.
I will always remember our first meeting at the New York metropolitan. I never believed the stories about love at first sight, but now I realize that it can be a reality. Our relationship started immediately and I didn’t even notice how love twisted my heart. People say that when you find the person that you want to spend the rest of you life with… you will know it. I enjoyed the time we spent together and I regret to make such decisions. You are one of a few persons on the earth which makes me feel confident and happy. You are understanding, attentive, intelligent, gentle and possesses many other wonderful qualities only real man have.
After your move to another country, I tried to believe into long-distance relationships – but I see it’s nothing in comparison with in-person realtions. It becomes more difficult to travel each time I visit you. Even having enough time for such long trips, I tried to find enough courage just to see your eyes. I know that are busy at work and have even less time then me, but I can’t spend all my free time on trips. I don’t want to receive imaginary kisses and hugs – I’m sick of Internet talks. Our phone conversations are becoming shorter and rarer. I feel that I’m constantly loosing you.
You know that I can’t leave the country because of my parents and my research in the university. I tried to manage this situation, but it was the first time in our relationship I found no support from you. I know that you had a long way to come to your dream job and put a lot of effort in it. You work hard and I’m sure you will succeed. I see so much potential in you, but only you can make it happen. So I don’t want to disturb you – I only want you to be happy.
In the future, I know I’ll relive our time together a thousand times. I’ll hear your laughter and see your face and feel your arms around me. I’m going to miss all of that, more than you can imagine.
My love, I’ve lost hope, and if hope is lost, then I fear we too will be lost forever. My decision is final as I have been battling the best solution for a long time. I hope you’ll understand me and I sincerely wish you luck with everything.
Y
